Los Angeles

Do you ever see something so beautiful that it makes you want to cry? Tears well up in your eyes and your whole body trembles a little bit? That is the ocean. That is the blue sky. That is the exhibit where the whole room vibrates with sound and movement and energy.

I don't love Los Angeles. I will never fall in love with Los Angeles. It is too much for me. Nothing connects to me. It is either too devastating, too scary and jarring or too fake. But my, it is so beautiful. I have never seen the blue in the sky bluer. I have never seen the sky vaster or more endless. Almost as if depth had changed in this part of the world. I don't know how depth can change like that, but it feels so immense to be there in the sun, in the blue. In the warmth. It shakes me. It shocks me. LA always feels like a dream to me. Moreso than any other place on Earth. I can't believe what exists. I am in awe. I am humbled. I am mystified. A place like no other.

It is the end of January and it is warm. We drive along in a convertible with the top down. Wind rushing through our hair. We eat fresh seafood beside the ocean. I dip my feet into the sand. I am walking without a jacket on the Venice Boardwalk. I have coffee outside. I take my time. There is an ease that only sunshine can bring. There is a look of ease that only exists after being lovingly embraced by sunshine.

Thank you, Los Angeles.

Film from 2018

December Moments

For a year where I struggled a lot, the month of December was really great. Some moments were bittersweet, but I really enjoyed the whole of it. It was my birthday month. My friends really came through, and I felt so loved. I felt so special. Other friends were back in town and I got to spend some time with them, catching up and laughing in general. My contract ended, which while sad, also felt like a new beginning of sorts. It was a month of lots of good food. Terroni, Chantecler, Oretta, St. Lawrence Market. I felt spoiled with all the good food I got to eat. Sprinkle in a couple cool events, a new tattoo, some reflective yoga classes. Finally, my best friend and I rounded off the year with our end-of-the-year tradition and lots of laughing.

All in all, I really enjoyed December. I hope you did too.

Pictured above: Chloe, Isabella, Jennifer, Ellen, Terrence, Evasha, Ben and myself.

Dying Business

Halloween 2018

We stayed up till 3 and I dressed up as Spinelli.

Pictured above: Bennett, Kyle, Alice, Mel, Christian, and myself.

Old Film

Some shots from my birthday:

Pictured above: Caroline, Erline, Jennifer and myself.

PS. My trusty Konica Z-Up 60 has passed on. The perfect Bunz trade had a problem with the lens and after consulting a couple of shops, the conclusion was that it would be too expensive to repair for a fairly inexpensive camera. I recently picked up a new 35mm point-and-shoot, so more film moments of my friends and I are still to come.

Vertical Images

David A. Balfour Park