A love letter to summer

This is today's journal entry: 
There is another week before March begins, maybe another few weeks before spring begins. I am stunned at the prospect of another summer, but hopefully this year around I feel less lost, less sad. Hopefully, this summer will be filled with the adventure that last summer lacked. I want the summer, the heat to remind me of all the ways I am alive.

I miss travelling. I miss the way that e can see the world with fresh eyes again. I miss the way, the beauty of that. Everything has a different light, different set of lines. I miss the curiosity that accompanies all of this. This summer, I want to make it somewhere, anywhere even if it is not so far. I want to see somewhere unfamiliar, to feel unfamiliar. I want that challenge again.

I want to learn how to skateboard.

I'm going to meet new people. I'm going to challenge myself and my art. Maybe I'll try to set up a small drawing booth at Trinity Bellwoods park. Maybe I will work up the courage to do tis. Maybe I will make friends this way. Maybe something good will out of this kind of practice. I want to further explore this aspect of myself. I want art, lots and lots of art. I want to breathe art, to live with it between my fingertips constantly.

I want to meet love again. Real love that I will have trouble denying, that I won't be nervous or anxious or worried about. I want real love, either with someone or completely with myself and my life and the speed of it all. I think that this is possible. It is possible to discover all over, and I am sure that I can do this, that I will. Discover good again and again.

I want summer this year, to scream life. To scream what is like to be alive in your 20s, full of drunken nights and screaming laughter. Dancing till it rains and your feet are too sore to walk the next day. I want art galleries to be the way I cool off and nude beaches to be where I will relax.

I don't want to put too much pressure on this summer, I don't want to stop moving. Wild things are meant to run free, not with feet bound to this earth. We will have adventures, we will remember sunsets and sunrises. Love, freedom and adventure will define this summer, and laughter will decorate all the spaces in between.

Spring is soon and spring always represents regrowth so it will be a chance for regrowth, for planting our roots in new desires, in new ways of encountering life.

It's going to be a time to be excited about life again. About adventure and all the ways that it can help build us as people. We will do well. We have to.